14 September, 2008
♥ 不一樣的中秋節
Didn't celebrate this year.
My family went to "fetch" my GREAT grandmother to go over to live near my grandfather today.
So I was woken early in the morning by papa & set off.
Almost all of my aunts & uncles was present, the cousins...Theres only Shini jie jie, marcus & me.
Maybe its too early?
I don't know.
Went through some chanting by the nun @ the temple & sent my great grandmother to live in her new place.
Visited grandpa as well.
Today is lantern/mooncake festival.
Its different.
Because I know that he is no longer there.
He will never be there again to be with us during any other festivals as well.
It didn't seem to matter when we celebrate festivals with him but when he is gone, I really feel the difference.
There is a difference.
But I can never make up to it.
So when I see him @ his new house,
Tears welled up in my eyes.
But they didn't drop.
It doesn't matter whether they did.
I don't know what to say to him.
Just like I have very little to say to him when he was alive.
But I just greeted him, told him to take care of himself & gave him my best wishes.
I didn't say it out loud.
Those words don't need to be heard by the rest of them.
Its only for him to hear.
I hope he heard me.
My family went to "fetch" my GREAT grandmother to go over to live near my grandfather today.
So I was woken early in the morning by papa & set off.
Almost all of my aunts & uncles was present, the cousins...Theres only Shini jie jie, marcus & me.
Maybe its too early?
I don't know.
Went through some chanting by the nun @ the temple & sent my great grandmother to live in her new place.
Visited grandpa as well.
Today is lantern/mooncake festival.
Its different.
Because I know that he is no longer there.
He will never be there again to be with us during any other festivals as well.
It didn't seem to matter when we celebrate festivals with him but when he is gone, I really feel the difference.
There is a difference.
But I can never make up to it.
So when I see him @ his new house,
Tears welled up in my eyes.
But they didn't drop.
It doesn't matter whether they did.
I don't know what to say to him.
Just like I have very little to say to him when he was alive.
But I just greeted him, told him to take care of himself & gave him my best wishes.
I didn't say it out loud.
Those words don't need to be heard by the rest of them.
Its only for him to hear.
I hope he heard me.
10:44 PM
